Couple days ago, I took my girls to the PreSchool Story time at the library, where they have to be there without a parent/caregiver. I was so excited that I was going to get 30 minutes to look through the books I needed without having to make sure the girls are not randomly picking up books or too loud..it was 30 minutes of free time for mommy. The girls were apprehensive at first and I assured them I would be just outside the door. But, as soon as the librarian opened the door to the story time, my girls walked hand in hand without a fear; excited and anxious to have a great time. I realized at that moment, my girls are growing up and learning to be independent. I never felt this because I homeschool and we spend all or most of our time together.
As I was going through book shelves looking for books, I was remembering how excited, nervous, beyond happy i was when I got pregnant with my oldest. I was so excited to meet her and then soon after I got pregnant with my littlest. I was so scared and nervous, how was I going to look after 2 little ones when I was barely sleeping with just one child. But as always, Allah always has plans for all of us which is in our best interest. Although it was tough and thank Allah for moms, because my mom helped a ton as well as my dad because he let her come visit me often. All of those struggles and sleep less night was so worth it, because when I look back, I can't even remember them. In the blink of an eye, I now have a 4 and half and 3 and half year old.
I am getting at least 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep each night (unless sick or nightmares), I can actually go to the rest room alone, I can eat my meal in somewhat peace, I can take calls without being pulled apart, which 3 or 4 years ago all seemed unattainable. I know I went through all of those struggles but I do not remember them as cons but I miss them because I know I will not get those moments back. So to all the new moms, all the struggles will be over before you know it but treasure each moment because they really go way too quick.
When I was getting my nails done few weeks back, the older lady was talking on and on about her grand children. I asked so do you love your grand children more than your own? She said, "no but I can make time now for my grand children and I could not with my own." "I had to cook, clean, shop, work and when my kids wanted to play or color, I never had time." " Now when my grand children come, I am able to put aside time and be with them and then they go back to their house and I get my stuff done.". She was saying it is easier to be a good grand parent but hard to be a parent because our responsibilities get in the way. So it is true, it is better to have a messy house with lots of memories then to have a perfectly clean house with not a lot of memories. I struggle with this everyday as I have OCD hubby who thinks house should be clean all the time and no one should be able to tell we have kids by visiting; keep downstairs clutter free. :). I have been coming up with few ideas to achieve this, which I will discuss in another post.
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